heaven??

nothing to think..
nothing to worry..
just drop by to hi..








lazing around the house today..
wath tv..
online..
watch tv..
online..
until there's nothing more to do..
will be in bed in the short time...
nite peeps...



owhhh.. i think i may need a vacation....
anyone interested in being my sponsor??
hahah

Duke's piece

ding dong!!

past few weeks..
the caption that i used for this entry(ding dong!!)..
i've noticed that i used it a lot when im bored and starting to text people...
wahahahah...
kinda cliche..

so..
since my last update..
i went back to perlis!!
YAYYYY!!
(im broke, thats why i went back to perlis)
but of course not many knows that..
i told everybody else that i went back for my youngest brother birthday is on that weekend..
PERFECT TIMING!!!
haha
well. thats true..
about my brother's birthday..
we plan a small family celebration..
me and my dad is the mastermind behind all that..
hahaha
so, my dad ask me what i wanna do..
i was thinking about doing the ordinary thing that i always did before..
like fried some macaroni and bake a simple cake..
but i want something different..
but i dont have nothing in my mind..
i decided to make a cake..
but then i thought, is it enough just the cake??
hermmm
so, i politely ask my makngah what could she help me with..
and she gave the idea about preparing some mee kuah..
WONDERFUL!!!
abselutely its not me who will prepare it!!
i know nothing about mee kuah except for eating it!!
haha

so, a cake..
a simple or different cake..
hermmm
i came up with an idea about two layers cake..
and just few hours before i started making the cake..
i saw Cake Boss on TLC..
i had this amazing yet crazy idea about making fondant!!
I NEVER DEAL WITH FONDANT BEFORE!!!
my dad said it was a great idea and he encourage me to go for it!!
yeahhhhh!!!
thanks pa!!
hehe
after hours of crucial hours in the kitchen..
the cake was complete..
YAAAAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!
at was 4 in the morning whn i finish the cake..
iyarkkk!!!!
i need to wake up at 10 to go to my mom's grave with my family to clean it up..
all i can think is sleep at that moment..

long story short...
the party was a blast!!
my youngest brother, Azam, had the time of his life..


well...
did you wanna see the cake!!!!
here it is!!!!









wait for it!!!!













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....well....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LITTLE BROTHER!!!!!
HAPPY 8TH BIRTHDAY AZAM!!!

Duke's piece

urghhh

...money money money...
everybody keep saying that money is not important..
WTF!!!
money is important!!!
well, maybe some will say that im 'mata duitan' or what ever..
ikut suka hati aku la weiiii...
nak kencing pon kena pakai duit kan la ni....
terbukti la duit tu penting...
toksah nak cakap pandai kata duit tu x penting la apa la..
semua benda nak pakai duit..
nak makan, minum..
nak tdo pon kena pakai duit...
ya la..
nak tdo mesti bukak kipas, nak mandi nak pakai air..
semua tu bukan nya free...
tu lah org kata kannn..
manusia lebeh pentingkan dunia drpd akhirat..
bg aku dua2 penting...
tp sama mcm org lain jugak..
cakap ja pandai aku ni ponnn...
cakap kata dua2 penting bg aku..
bila tgk2 balik diri aku ni, ak mmg nmpak sgt yg aku lebeh pentingkan keseronokan dunia..
hermmmm..
apa la nak jadi dgn aku ni...
insyaallah satu hari ak akan berubah..
pray for me buddy..
huhuh
sama2 lah kita berubah ekkk..

back to the topic about money..
hahahhaa
ak x kerja lg..
so hidup ak ditanggung sepenuhnya oleh family aku...
(termasuklah maktok aku, tok aku, tokwan aku, bapak aku, mcik2 aku, tok2 sedara aku..)
stiap kali ak balik kg, mesti harapan aku menggunung tuk kutip duit dri semua org yg slalu bg duit kat aku...
bapak ak pulak cakap yg ak gunakan duit lebeh drpd org yg kerja...
pikir2 balik btol jugak cakap my dad tuhh...
bapak ak takot ak x dapat nk sesuaikan diri bila ak dah kerja nanti..
so, dia plan ngn aku yg dia akan msukkan certain amount for a month and thats all for that month...
rm1000 to be exact..
but hell!!!!
x cukup siot....
ak pon xtwu ape yg ak buat with that money..
2 weeks an its all gone..
owh yeahhh... i remember...
i pay the rent..
the bills..
food..
shopping!!!
arghhhhhh..
there's another 2 weeks in the month...
and im broke already...
maybe its time to pull out the big gun..
come up with some ground breaking mock up story about how im broke, and call my dad..
its that easy and simple..
and it works every time...
huhuhuhuhu
u may be thinking what kind of a son am i...
hahaha
my dad knows me well...
he always know that im lying to him every time i ask for more money..
but instead, he keep give me more..
yeahhh
love you daddy!!!!
well, maybe im the spoil-est eldest son in the world...(MAYBE)
hahahaha....
back to the story...
im broke and i dont like it...
hate it!!

so, someone please find me a sugar mummy..
hahah
if i got one, u will get your share...
hahahhaha


i wish i have a dozen of these tree...



i want one on these.... huhu


and these!!

WISH ME LUCK!!!!! hahah

Duke's piece

love hate

late this afternoon, me and aril went to a movie...
Narnia(we watched it in 3D yawwwww.. haha)
about an hour after we got back from the movie..
i received a phone call from someone..
i received a shocking news..
he's been in an accident!!!
my heart stop for a moment..
luckily im still alive now..
(hahahahahhaha)
long story short, he told me that he was having to much fun..
that's why he got an accident..
the funny thing is, he actually got that accident on his vacation with his family at PD..
muahahahaha
i cant stop myself from laughing..
apart from feeling terribly sorry and pity for him, its actually funny...
i know u may be reading this someday..
so, u know that i care for you...
get well soon buddy...
huhuhu

Duke's piece

doesnt matter

laughing my lungs out had seriously helped me a lot recently.... i watched funny videos.. read funny stories and other things that could make me laugh.... i laugh until i hurt my jaw.. haha





i want this t-shirt so fucking bad!!!

Duke's piece

things and time

its been ages..
i know...
don't blame me for that..
blame my lack of mood...
hahahaha...
well, im back isn't i...
shut up!!





i broke up... im devastated about it... i dont know what and how i should feel about it.. it's like the end of the world..(now and forever i think) cant get you out of my mind even for a moment.. i know you probably read this.. i dont care.. i've done pretending to be OK about this.. u said u had a new person in your life.. i acted like its ok, but i really dont.. u have my heart.. always have, always will... tears been my best-est best friend.. so, there it is... for now..(i've tried to keep it to myslef but its been fuckingly wayyyyyyyy too hard)








i've moved into a new house with a friend.. the same condo.. different house and floor.. my view from the balcony is the swimming pool.. feel awesomely calm in this new home.. bought some fish.. named KIKI and KIKO... the hamsters still in the old home.. will bring them here someday... trying to get the cheapest deal on some furniture like couch and kitchen cabinet... still searching for another housemate to ease our rental burden...




been cheating to everyone that im fine.. well, im bleeding inside.. trying to figure out my life as much as possible.. trying not to burden others with my problems.. people keep adding my problems with theirs.. trying to detect my flaws and fixing it.. regretting some mistakes from my past.. rekindled sweet memories.. fooling around with my present life(with some helps from my friends).. trying to changed from who i was before.. goofing around.. feeling the emptiness in my heart.. i feel soo lonely.. its like am all alone in my little world.. like i cant even talk to anyone about the mess in my head...








family become my antidote.. having a blast with them.. though we're far apart, we're closer in our heart.. love you guys always!!!




most of all!!!!
i miss my mom..
more than ever..
i wish you are still here to tell me that everything will be alright like you always does when you were still alive..

i miss you mama..
always..
may you rest in peace..
AL-FATIHAH

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