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Tuesday, May 17, 2011

aku hebat!!


erghhhh..
the exams is here!!!
ishk2..
dont get me wrong..
i've been studying for quite some time already..
but have you ever experienced what i've experienced just now??
hermmm..
i've been studying..
and then my friend came and ask me to help him understand something..
i know about what he's asking..
as im about to explain to him..
i went blank..
i cant remember a thing!!
DAMN!!!!!



ok..
maybe im a bit stressed about the exams..




FINE!!

distressing in progress!!!
hahahaha





i found some pictures on the internet..
exams theme..

i need to pray a lot more!!

mmg aku x jawab exam la kalau cmni.. hahaha

ini style!!


mimpi semalam.. haha





i need all the help i can get...
please pray for me my fellow friends...
huhuh
Insyaallah...








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Monday, May 16, 2011

sewel...

ok..
no wonder lah aku asyik pokai je kann..
biler tgk2 balik..
masyaallah!!
belambak giler!!
hahaha




tp nak wat cmner kan..
essentials tuhh..
nak x nak kene ade jugak..
huhuh




pikir2 balik kan..
macam byk sangat lah pulak..
belambak!!




tp semuanya aku guna..
xde 1 bnde pun yg ak x gune..
hermmmmmm...




ishhhh..
apa laaaa yg ak dok beleter nehhh..
hermmmm..



hahaha
nak taw ka??
tgk la kat bwh nehhh..







JENG JENG JENG!!!!!!

products that i've used every single day..
banyak kann...
hahahaha
gila lahhh..
patut la my dad cakap aku dah bole bukak guardian kat umah aku..
hahahahahhahahahaha...
ni pun x semua barang yg ak dok guna lg nihh..
hair product aku ad lg separuh yg ak x snap pics skali..
sbb x muat nak susun kat ctu skali..
huahuahuahua..
nnt kalau ak pokai..
bole la kot nak wat yard sale..
hahahahha




ntah pasai pa tah..
tetiba ja ak tringat nak wat post ni..
hahaha
boring sangat dah la kottt..
ignored!!

















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Happy Teacher's Day

to all the teachers out there..
no matter what you teach..
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!!!!
may your days to come fill with goodness..
keep up your great work!!














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Sunday, May 15, 2011

shake your pom pom

nothing to do..
credit to Azrena Ahmad Tarmizi for this post..
i copy this post from her blog..


here we goes.......


1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY', YOU SAY?
because im stupid - SS501

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
addicted - Enrique Iglesias

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
again - MBLAQ

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
drown - Limp Bizkit

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
love like this - SS501

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
billionaire - Travie McCoy(this is true!! very very true!! hahah)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
dimanakan ku cari ganti - P Ramlee(agak r nak cari pengganti aku kannn.. haha)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
stand by me - Shinee

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
bad girl good girl - Miss A

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
sugar - System Of a Down

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
again&again - 2PM

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
womanizer - Britney Spears (really?? hahahahaha!!!!)



WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
still - Lee Hong Ki

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
haunted - Evanescence (owwww yeahhhh!!!!)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
i dreamed i died - Devildriver (wow!!! irony..)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
you are the best of my life - lee hyun

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
boom boom - Super Junior

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
how to save a life - The Fray

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
world go round - No Doubt

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
karma police - Radiohead

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
shake your pom pom - Missy Elliot






dont blame me for being lame!! hahah.. super duper bored now... and i cant sleep.. huhu..















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Wednesday, May 11, 2011

lost

i've put a smile,
so that nobody see me frown.
i laughed,
so that nobody hear me sob.
i wink my eyes,
so that nobody see my tears.
i always get up,
so that nobody knows im down.
i make myself busy,
so that nobody know i feel lonely.
i always seems happy,
so that nobody know im miserable.
i took long shower,
so that nobody see me cry.
i put on loud music,
so that nobody hear me scream.
i dance to silly songs,
so that i can cheer my self up.
i constantly let myself down,
so that i can pull someone up.
i keep quiet,
so that i can listen to others.

i hang out with my friends,
coz i think they'll going to leave me someday.
i buy things that i like,
coz im afraid i wont have the chance again someday.
i spend time with my family,
coz i dont want to lose them someday.
im happy with my friends,
coz i dont want them to be sad.
i tell lies sometimes,
coz i feel ashamed of my life.
i keep my problems,
coz i dont want to burden anyone.
i hide my sadness,
coz i dont want anyone to feel sorry.
i laugh,
coz im afraid.
i hate being in a relationship,
coz im afraid i will somehow hurt them.

im just a regular person.
trying to fit in this world.


it is more or less a true story about me. im not saying that im a good person to begin with. its just something that i wanted to shout out of my lungs for a very long time. im surely not expecting everyone to be like this. its an agony to be like that. but somehow, its the reason that i keep on living my life.

but sometimes, i feel abandoned. although i have lots of friend, i feel lonely. although i have a family that love me, i feel like im all alone. i feel like im worthless. i feel like i dont deserve anything from anyone. i feel like im an outcast. i feel like i keep on failing. i feel unappreciated. i feel like nobody cares about me, whether im dead or alive, im sad or happy. sometimes i wonder, what will everyone feel when im dead or when im no longer near them. will they miss me, or they will not even notice anything.

i may seems like im always happy type of guy, but there's time when im sad. some people may say that im soulless, but i still have feelings. i just dont like to show them out. it hurts when people just seems like they dont care about you as much as you care about them. it hurts. it hurts. it hurts.




i feel USELESS!!











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